Deirdre, once again

Deirdre, once again is a written note found in Death of the Outsider.

Transcript
''I kept the rat charm close last night when I tried to sleep, hoping for more than darkness in my dreams, and just for a moment she was with me in the cold. Deirdre. That same sweet face I always knew. She touched my right hand and it twitched like it was dying, like I couldn't control it. I wanted to hide from her. She didn't need to see what I'd become, but her eyes were dark and she wouldn't look away.''

''Then she reached out and took my other hand, the one that was all flesh, and kissed my fingertips like she used to. I could have cried. It felt so real. She came close, and whispered something in my ear. I felt her breath on my neck, felt her cold palm on my cheek. But I can't remember what she said. It was like trying to hear a voice whispering across the water.''

Outsider's blood, I'd give anything to know what she said.

''I'm going to lose everything again. I can feel it.''

Location
This note can be found crumpled on the floor upon waking up aboard the Dreadful Wale during the mission The Bank Job. Снова Дейрдре